This is my story…
In 2014, my father passed away. He was a wonderful man. He raised me and taught me everything I know. He supported me through hardships and is possibly the only human who loved me and accepted me for everything that I am. His death set off several emotions and actions in my brain. In January 2015, I was diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder after being in and out of hospital for a month and being treated for all types of diseases.
I had panic attacks and was rushed to hospital on numerous occasions. I was referred to a psychologist who was supposed to help me through this time and advise me for the long run. After my 12-week treatment programme, I turned all my hurt and anger into motivation and quickly became a successful individual. I had my own business at the time and was thriving in my work environment. I started studying and did great! Unfortunately, keeping myself away from facing the reality has worsened the problem. I finally cracked under pressure, which led to some poor decisions.
In 2017, I decided to pack up my life and start a fresh new one in the Mother City. To me, I saw this as a new beginning with no anxiety and no problems. Little did I know that 2017 would be a rough rollercoaster ride. I quickly found a job and made a success of it. Unfortunately, bills are still due and there is no where to run anymore. 3 months later I returned to Johannesburg, feeling like a complete failure. On the 27th of July 2017, I was rushed off to hospital with a severe panic attack. I was once again referred to a psychologist. Within the next month, I got the offer of a lifetime. In less than a week, my bags was packed, and I was ready to head back to Cape Town.
In the beginning, all seemed fine and I thought the anxiety has finally passed, when I started getting minor panic attacks and diagnosed with all the diseases you can possibly think of. Due to my previous experiences, I knew it was my anxiety making a comeback. Once again, I threw myself into work and made a huge success of myself and boosted my career. This is a dream job and for once in my life I love my work. I am doing it for myself and there is no better job for me. Even though I love my job and I am super successful, it doesn’t cover the fact that I have some underlying issues that needs attention.
I can’t possibly ask for anything more! I have the perfect career, the company I work for looks after me and I have my own little apartment, I can call home.
My happiness was short lived. On the 18th of September 2018, I was admitted to hospital for a severe panic attack. They kept me overnight and discharged me in the morning. Due to my job being demanding, I travel a lot. Little did I know that this was only the beginning of something so big that my life is now hanging in the balance.
I continued living my life but was rushed off to hospital 3 weeks later with another severe panic attack and again 2 weeks later for the same thing. This has been on going ever since. I am rushed off to the ER every 7 to 14 days. I have seen doctor’s, neurologists, psychiatrists, physiotherapists, social workers and probably every other kind of doctor you can imagine. I get poked at weekly.
The anxiety has now reached a phase where it is threatening my physical health. I was in hospital 5 days ago where they diagnosed me with a severe reflux issue and a stomach ulcer. The anxiety is causing an acid build up which is eating away my stomach lining. I am in constant pain and barely sleep or eat. I have depleted all funds possibly available to me and I am now at the point where I can no longer afford medical care as I have many unpaid accounts. My condition is threatening my job and my life at this point. Unfortunately, there is no medical aid out there to assist me in any way. Government Hospitals won’t treat me, and I have no options left. My life is currently falling apart to the point that I must give up. This is not a battle I can win unless a miracle appears.
This is my last chance at trying…. I have started a crowdfunding page in hopes of gathering enough money to continue treatment and have a some what normal life again. If you can in anyway assist me to reach my goal and help me continue my treatment, it will be appreciated. I will post weekly updates of my progress, should I be able to continue my therapy.
Crowdfunding Link : https://gogetfunding.com/help-me-live-a-normal-life/
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